Abusive relationships. Well, that’s really the main theme of this book. What is it about romanticizing abuse in “love” relationships that appeals to most despite knowing its dark side? Perhaps it’s the unknown, unpredictable twist and naive wishful thinking that love ultimately wins and conquers it all. Or perhaps it offers a perspective on love that fills in the void for those whose hearts have been bruised through the test of time.
The story starts with Lily hanging out in a balcony of an apartment building, captivated by the sight of Ryle smoking up in the same apartment building. As in any other ‘abuser’, Ryle presents a calm and mysterious guy. somewhat playful, and has a relaxed and quiet confidence about him. I think it’s easy to fall for a guy like him- handsome, young and has a promising career (neurosurgeon). As predicted, it does not take long until Lily can’t stop thinking about him and immediately falls for him as soon as she laid eyes on him. Later on, we find out Ryle professes he felt the same way. I imagine Lily to be the stereotypical girl-next-door that most men fall head over heels for. Educated, owns her own flower shop business, and fiercely independent. But surprise surprise, Lily hides a traumatic past brought on by her parents’ tumultuous relationship, or what could aptly be more contributed to the hands of her forceful father against her enduring mother. Her mother lives, her dad has passed, while her childhood wounds has yet to heal. You could say that nothing beats the timing when Ryle walked in her life.
In many ways, Lily and Ryle’s relationship does start strong and passionate. You feel Lily’s love for Ryle and want to protect it at all costs. Slowly, Ryle’s core is peeled off, revealing glimpses of dark and violent tendencies of what he’s capable of when provoked. The book manages to weave in at least few incidents of his abrupt violence towards Lily, and each time, I find myself desperately wanting things to go back the way it was. Sometimes, even blaming Lily for saying the wrong thing or laughing at the wrong time. It’s almost as if this love is so precious that I am willing to look past what Ryle did and hope for the best in the future. After all, he is the sweet and affectionate man when he is at his best. It does not help that he is attractive and a has a successful career. To an average young woman seeking for the kind of love you see in movies and books, this is exactly every woman’s dream come true. Ryle’s character here is so realistic that I find myself rooting for him in his helpless moments, but recognize that this is also the type of relationship that only those who went through abusive relationships would warn you about. Being in an abusive relationship is mostly a solitary and lonely experience, as Lily’s story proves to be.
While Lily has another love interest, Atlas, whom I adore and cherish for the savior that he is, the parts dedicated to him in the book did not captivate me as Ryle and Lily’s story did. Atlas had a quiet and strong confidence about him as well, but I find him to be painfully uninteresting and plain. I also did not like the fact that he waited too long to catch up with Lily. Loving someone can be as simple as reaching out and letting the person know you exist – then it’s up to them to decide what they want to do with that knowledge. Why on earth can’t Atlas be a little bit more proactive about his love for Lily, and instead waits all these years to profess his love for her?
This is by no means a full review of the book because it only focuses on one main theme of the book – that is, abuse. The books does not go into heinous details about what abuse encapsulates, but simply endeavors to tell that abuse can come in different faces and variations. For instance: who knew that abuse can disguise as a pretty picture until you laugh at the wrong turn?