flux

July 2, 2019. I got engaged. Engagement.. what weird concept. I’m content and happy. Wow, it feels so freeing to write that.

All my life, I seem to thrive on faux misery and self-inflicted angst stemming from my somewhat conservative upbringing. So it is weird to think that i am engaged to be married and actually not miserable, lonely and utterly and completely unhappy.

But don’t be mistaken- I am not taken in the sense that I’ve stopped and settled at the last train station. I still find myself roaming about, flitting around at that next cafe, wildly anticipating the rich taste of that coffee. I am just happier and more comfortable at the idea that I will most likely eternally be in a constant state of flux.

~ by tidalrage on September 8, 2019.